I love you Houda,

so deeply, tenderly, profoundly.

I love you.

And I miss you,

every second we are not together. Every moment I don’t spend with you.

I miss you.

And I want you,

even if I know we’ll have time to be together.

I want you.

And I desire you.

Now, and every moment. In the past, present and future.

I desire you.

This love I feel, this feeling… it’s indescribable. It’s so big, immense, pure, raw, polyhedric, insatiable… that it can’t be explained with certain words, feelings or actions. Not one particular anyway.

Because how do you explain to someone the sensation you get when time stops right in front of your eyes when you touch somebody’s fingers at an office when you are giving them a paper? How do you describe hearing somebody’s laugh across the room, louder than the 200 people around you? How do you explain your heart racing when you see their name on your lock screen? How can you describe the smile you get when you see them smile? When you hear them talk? When you think about them?

And I guess that’s the point… that the infinite collection of sensations I get when I see you, feel you, touch you, hear you, smell you. Is what makes this love so truthful, so big, so immense.

Because when I am with you. I am happy. And when I am with you… I feel invincible, unstoppable, incredible. When I am with you… I feel out of this world, on a different planet. And when I am with you… I feel more than anything I have ever felt. And I truly feel happier than I have ever been.

And I truly hope I can make you feel like that someday, too.

Because I love you.

More than these words can describe.

And I miss you.

More than I’ll ever be able to express.

And I want you.

Now, and every future millisecond after now.